I've fought the battle of despair....and fight
on I will, for nothing can still, the aching in my
heart. Many times we have been apart, but
I always found my way home to the one who
cared, who shared, who knew that home
was LOVE, never ending from the start.

Her smile was my open door to happiness
and the sparkle in her eyes was my window
of contentment. She was my life. But, now
the door has closed. Her smile is gone, the
sparkle is no longer there...but, where; oh
where am I to find another heart to call my
home? My eyes filled with tears prevent me
from having a "Window of Contentment"....for
I cannot see what lies ahead....and daily I
dread, the awakening of another day....., you
see, my sorrow won't go away. My God,
look down on me and say, "Take my hand, let
ME show you the way."

Yes, I've fought the battle long and alone,
and even though I fight still, I pray for an
occasional moment of joy, of peace, and
a modicum of purpose. I'm tired of being
tired, of frustration, of loneliness and the
stillness of the night. Turn on the light of
happiness, so that I might see, there is still
a life for such as me. I LOVED HER....and
I always shall...but, for now I need something
more than just a pal. I need the weight lifted
from my heart and somehow, open new
doors with just a smile. But, for someone
such as me, where, oh where, do I find the key?

If I could but evoke a smile from tiny
memories past, perhaps I'll find that's the
key to a little peace at last... I LOVED HER SO AND ALWAYS WILL............
Jerome

08-22-09